Don't understand...

I guess I may never know this side of eternity, but trying to cope with another loss is more than I can handle in my own strength. We received a phone call this past Sat. in the wee hours of the morning that my mother-in-law (Mom) had been rushed to the hospital. From what we know at this time she apparently didn't feel well and then all of a sudden collapsed. She wasn't breathing, 911 was called, CPR was performed along this defibrillator to shock her heart back. Arrived at the hospital with blood pressure continuing to drop, no means of medication was helping. She was put on a machine that breathed for her keeping her alive, but Mom was already gone even though some may disagree. Her body was stabilized allowing the medical staff to get a cat scan desperately trying to find out what was wrong. Cat Scan showed that she had multiple broken ribs on her left side, collapsed lung along with some internal bleeding. No outward signs of any kind of trauma. For any of you who know me, it will be only three years this October that my father-in-law passed away due to complications from his tragic accident. Mom had only been moved back to OK to try to move on with her life about a year and a half ago.

We knew that my DH needed to get out there as quickly as possible, so we bit the bullet and got him on the next flight out. Within 10 minutes of his arrival to the hospital her heart rate went from 80 to 0. They tried to save her but even if they had been able to they would have only been saving her body. The doctor's even told my husband that they weren't doing her any good because she had had no brain activity at all since her admittance. Mom was gone!! Even as I write this I can't portray in words the pain I numbness and pain that I feel. Not withstanding how my husband is coping seeing as I haven't been able to be by his side as of yet. I will be flying out first thing in the morning by the blessing given from my church in the form of a plane ticket. Please pray for me and my family as the this is going to a very long hard road of grievance and recovery. We still don't know a cause to her death but through a medical autopsy that was performed today hopefully all those questions will soon be answered. I miss her sooo much and can't grasp the fact that she is really gone. It feels like I am in a horrible dream and just need to WAKE UP!!!

And several months later.....

Ok, I give up I love so much to read other people's blogs and find myself never updating mine. Since I got off work early today, and am procrastinating about getting out in this heat to cut grass, I figured now is as good of time as any!!

Well let's see I am officially the BIG 30 as of June 8, and oh how I was dreading it but whether i like it or not here I am!!! I must say I have so many more goals and aspirations at thirty years old than I ever did in my twenties. Right now I am working on getting my RDA(registered dental assistant) license with an online degree program, then highly contemplating moving to a degree in dental hygiene. I love my job and the opportunities it holds.

As it stands right now the LORD has not seen fit to bless me with any children, so I am learning to be content. I am blessed a husband that makes me aware of how much I long for him to know the LORD, and with two loving four-legged kids, that are great companions!! I am also truly blessed with an earthly piece of a promise land, literally...I love our land and all the possibilities it holds.

My parents were up this whole past week helping my DH start tearing down the A-frame that my father-in-law built. Praise the Lord!!! 1/4 was able to be torn down and also it didn't fall on our mobile home!!! It will probably take us the rest of the summer and into the fall to completely get it down. I am so proud of my DH in all the hard work that he and my dad put in everyday. They were able to accomplish much and my mother bless her heart helped me out tremendously with the work on the inside our mobile home. I felt guilty that I wasn't able to be of much help seeing as I wasn't able to take off work. God has truly blessed me with loving, godly parents, that even though we don't always agree I know how much they love and care for me.

Personally the thing that I was most happy about was that i now have a sewing room/guest bedroom!!! I must take some pictures to share, my mom rocks and did such a great job on painting the room and setting it up. Now to just get the living room and master bedroom finished. For any of you that don't know DH and I purchased a 1994 mobile home from an individual 1 1/2 ago and moved onto the property in order to get out of the A-frame. Needless to say it needed bit of freshening up so we have painted all the walls and ripped out almost all of the carpet. We have been doing a bit at a time seeing as we haven't been able to afford much. It is slowly but surely coming together and becoming our home. We are looking forward to that day we are able to build a real house, but for now I am content with my little
"trailer". I am truly blessed even though the road is hard at times my God is there with me all the way. Well guess this is pretty good for the first post in a long time, I pray all of you are blessed as much as I am:)
...over 40 ft tall and what a challenge to get down!!

Come on Spring!!

So yeah it's been a month later and I am behind on posting. One of my goals this year was to keep up with my blog a bit better. I know doesn't look like I am doing so hot, but I'm trying. A lot has gone on in the beginning of a new year, for starters I have a brand new job in a completely different field. I am super stoked about it!!!! Last July I got hired on at a water heater plant working in the cafeteria, which was o.k. ya know familiar. Cooking has always been second nature for me to those of you who know me, but unfortunately it was just a job and not one that held much opportunity. October rolled around and a lady at my church text me saying that their was a business assistant position at the dentist office where she worked that had come open and wondered if I would be interested. Of course I said yes but I had no experience so I submitted my resume and left it at that. Set up an interview with her boss, it went well but I never heard anything back so I just assumed the position had been filled. The week before Christmas I got a call asking me if I was still interested and that she wanted me to interview at a different office. Set the interview up for the Monday after Christmas, interview went well and she wanted me to come after New Year's for a working interview. The day before I was to go for the work interview she called me back and said that she was sorry but didn't feel that I would be a good fit for what they were looking for at this particular office, but she really liked me as a person and wanted to know if I would be interested in going in a different direction.

She thought it would be a good way for me to get my foot in the door by starting out as a sterile tech and working to being trained for a dental assistant. The most wonderful thing about it was it was at one of their dental office's that is only about 20 miles from my house versus driving all the way into Nashville. How awesome is that, right? So she set me up for the interview a couple days later and PRAISE GOD the dentist hired me on the spot!!!! I put my two week notice in at the water heater plant ( by the way they were not happy at all that I was leaving) and last Thursday was my first day at the dentist office. To say the least my mind has been completely boggled but I love every minute of it. It has been incredible to be blessed with such an awesome opportunity for a professional career and being trained for it on the job without having to go to school for it.

O.k. enough on the new job, I AM SO READY FOR SPRING!!!!!
I've gotten several seed catalogs in the mail that I've been drooling over and I can't wait to get my hands dirty. I did make a batch of laundry soap oh I guess it's been almost a month ago that I was going to share some pics of...
After I shredded my soap I added it to my borax and washing soda. This batch I used ivory soap but you can use Fels Naptha as listed in the recipe below. I have been using it like powdered detergent but if you follow the directions below you can make as liquid.

Homemade Laundry Soap

1/3 bar Fels Naptha or other type of soap, as listed above

½ cup washing soda

½ cup borax powder
~You will also need a small bucket, about 2 gallon size~



Grate the soap and put it in a sauce pan. Add 6 cups water and heat it until the soap melts. Add the washing soda and the borax and stir until it is dissolved. Remove from heat. Pour 4 cups hot water into the bucket. Now add your soap mixture and stir. Now add 1 gallon plus 6 cups of water and stir. Let the soap sit for about 24 hours and it will gel. You use ½ cup per load.

I must say it is very cost effective and cleans the clothes just as well as any store bought.

Well I started this post a couple days ago, and seeing as I didn't have to go to work today because of the weather I am taking opportunity to finish it. Looking out the window of my bedroom as I type this and enjoying the white winter scene that even only an inch of snow has created. The earlier part of this day was not so much.
Guess this is what I get for trying to combine two posts into one. Needless to say my husband's car got stuck coming down the driveway last night when it was pouring rain, we tried to pull him out with my truck this morning and got it stuck as well. Yeah I can laugh now, but at the time there was nothing funny about it. My husband had called in that he wouldn't be able to come in to work, but that was not resolving our problem.

We have serious issues with our rural driveway that we just can't afford to professionally have fixed and the wet winter weather fights against us. But back to today. David was finally able to get my truck out and to the top of the driveway, then worked and got his car out. Thank God and he was able to go to work only being a couple hours late instead of missing the whole day.

Now I have the adventure in the morning of walking up our 1/4 mile long driveway to my truck... lots of rain turning to snow + even lower temps tonight = ICE!!! Ice is not my friend when it comes to me walking on it. Well I hope all the rest of you are staying warm. Like I said, "Come on Spring"!!!
I leave you with a picture of my "oldest kid" and how he is spending his snow day:)